Scratch a belief, find 10,000.
On the business of fear and dream plane activity, there was more to it than met the eye. The BBC Reith lectures 2004 addressed and fear and the climates of fear. The uses of fear by governments, employers, corporations, religious leader and other assorted nameless faceless authorities .I probed a bit deeper, given the promptings the talks evoked to do so. What am I afraid of and how does this affect my practise, and uses of the self’s faculties? And does an outer FW1 climate of fear affect me, can it even exist without my consent to it at some level.
The beliefs were not hidden, but it’s been decades since I was aware of them. The arise out of stories told in childhood, a fondness for horror movies in adolesance, and a fascination with anything occult and religious in my 20s, leading into metaphysics light or dark so long as it was mystical and mysterious. But such explorations have come with a subtle and incremental cost, the baggage of ‘there be demons out there’, ‘be careful’, ‘don’t get ahead of yourself’. Looking at these internal beliefs uncritically I realised, I don’t even believe ‘in’ most of them now. Yet they still exist exerting influence on my choices? Strange.
Wanting resolution, something I could carry with me into the dream plane that was of me not an instruction to say ‘peace’ parrot like (though that might prove to be useful) or even a mantra to dispel fear’…Hail Mary full of grace.’ What resonated strongly was when Wole Soyinka spoke of the importance of Dignity in the face of fear
We are all agreed, I like to believe, on what constitutes fear. If not, we can at least agree on the symptoms of fear, recognize when the conditioning of fear has afflicted or been imposed on an individual or a community. Certainly we have learnt to associate the emotion of fear with the more ascertainable measure of a loss in accustomed volition. The sense of freedom that is enjoyed, or more accurately, taken for granted in normal life, becomes acutely contracted.
And here
A notable aspect of all-pervasive fear is that it induces a degree of the loss of self-apprehension - a part of one's self has been appropriated, a level of consciousness, and this may even lead to a reduction in one's self-esteem - in short, a loss of inner dignity.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio4/reith2004/
Inner Dignity. That stands out for me as something that is at stake. And I do see that in Vincent’s doggedness. So while I do have some fears, many of them will prove to be groundless, but it would be undignified to be led by them and have my choices and options defined by them. Despite the intensity of Jane’s concerns with her sinful self, her physical challenges she kept up her practise. I didn’t know that I could ever come to a place of personal resolution with the manner of her departure
The beliefs were not hidden, but it’s been decades since I was aware of them. The arise out of stories told in childhood, a fondness for horror movies in adolesance, and a fascination with anything occult and religious in my 20s, leading into metaphysics light or dark so long as it was mystical and mysterious. But such explorations have come with a subtle and incremental cost, the baggage of ‘there be demons out there’, ‘be careful’, ‘don’t get ahead of yourself’. Looking at these internal beliefs uncritically I realised, I don’t even believe ‘in’ most of them now. Yet they still exist exerting influence on my choices? Strange.
Wanting resolution, something I could carry with me into the dream plane that was of me not an instruction to say ‘peace’ parrot like (though that might prove to be useful) or even a mantra to dispel fear’…Hail Mary full of grace.’ What resonated strongly was when Wole Soyinka spoke of the importance of Dignity in the face of fear
We are all agreed, I like to believe, on what constitutes fear. If not, we can at least agree on the symptoms of fear, recognize when the conditioning of fear has afflicted or been imposed on an individual or a community. Certainly we have learnt to associate the emotion of fear with the more ascertainable measure of a loss in accustomed volition. The sense of freedom that is enjoyed, or more accurately, taken for granted in normal life, becomes acutely contracted.
And here
A notable aspect of all-pervasive fear is that it induces a degree of the loss of self-apprehension - a part of one's self has been appropriated, a level of consciousness, and this may even lead to a reduction in one's self-esteem - in short, a loss of inner dignity.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio4/reith2004/
Inner Dignity. That stands out for me as something that is at stake. And I do see that in Vincent’s doggedness. So while I do have some fears, many of them will prove to be groundless, but it would be undignified to be led by them and have my choices and options defined by them. Despite the intensity of Jane’s concerns with her sinful self, her physical challenges she kept up her practise. I didn’t know that I could ever come to a place of personal resolution with the manner of her departure
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